Heartache

I cry easily, and sometimes I feel that I'm just a silly girl, tearing over minor things.
I get very easily affected by what people says, and if there's a bit of displeasure or negativity thrown towards me, I will cry.
And being egoistic, I dont cry in front of others. I dont like people to see me cry, not because I dont want their care but because I dont wanna be seen as a weakling.
At home, I cry mainly due to what my mum says. It's been like this for the past 21 years.
I've always felt like a second fiddle to my brothers.
Why is it that I've to do this and that, but he can sit there and do nothing?
Why is it that my mum talks to me in an accusing and angry tone, but so sweetly to his precious son?
Why does my mum call me useless and not her precious son?!
I once joked to a friend, in front of my parents, that my parents dote on me because I'm their only daughter.
I just wanted to make myself feel good in front of my friend.
Later on, my mum shoot back to me, "女儿又怎样？是宝啊？什么都不会做。你以为你很厉害!”
That was when I was having my dinner. As I sat there hearing what she said, I pretended I was concentrating on eating, and ignored what she said.

You know, silence, is a girl's loudest cry.

I put on a brave stubborn front, and stood up to get water, before going to the toilet, and cried inside.
I dont know how many times I've done this. Even today.
Just a tiny bit of displeasure towards me, and bias towards my brother made me angry, jealous and hurt.

I tear sometimes, when I get cold replies.
I tear sometimes, when I seem like I'm not important.
I tear, when I'm being ignored.

You know she's hurt, when she starts to ignore you.

And when I feel hurt, I ignore others. Ironic isn't it?
I know I want attention, from my loved ones.
Is this wrong?
I know I may get overly-sensitive at times, but I can't help it.
I hide my emotions too. People just need genuine concerns.
And, I just wish for my daily love and attention.