cant control my tears
plan thawrted yet again.
this time, on the eve of my birthday.
disappointment gets huge when youve high anticipation of whats going to come.
i was looking forward to today, a seemingly happy day until i saw the messages.
have been swallowing tears outside school, back home.
feels so stupid now.
but then again, what can i say?
i'll make myself appear like a selfish being that only cares about me.

its okay, after all, ive empty walls and a lonely soul to accompany me at home.

happy birthday to me.
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reversal of events.
bf came knocking at my door with my present and a cake.
surprised.

i probably should be more optimistic.